Saturday, February 14, 2009

I've decided..

..that if I'm gonna live, I'm going to live like humans are supposed to live. Aka, not a place where materialism, superficiality, comfort, and always striving for the easiest way out possible is the norm. Western people are all too fucking scared of actually living. Oh you can't do that, it's not safe, it's not clean, it's too hard, you won't be home for dinner. It's choking me, and it completely destroys all will to do anything at all. Money, vanity, ownership, rules, it destroys everything.

I want to live in a place where people value eachother above all. Where they're alive simply to live, where greed and prestige doesn't exist and who you are and what you can contribute with is all that matters. Where everyone has a place. Where there is no fucking plan, no agenda, no self-awareness, no competition. Where noone has to starve because they lack fucking pieces of paper with numbers printed on them. Where people aren't so fucking scared of of eachother they don't even dare to trust the people closest to them.

There are places like these, still. They're rapidly disappearing along with the rain forests. These people have no money but they're the richest people in the world. They have everything that matters, everything we lack. Obviously they're not perfect, no one is, but they're happy. We are not. They're genuine, generous, they can be themselves. They have quality of life. We lost that centuries ago. We replaced kindness and dignity with ownership and fear and jealousy. We're so scared to die we're too paralyzed to live. Our wonderful way of life has given us king size beds and 52" tv's, but we pay for it with mental illnesses and isolation.

Not to mention that we're raping and murdering the entire planet and millions and millions of lives have been lost or destroyed because of the quest for power and money.

I don't think my chances of getting to live with some indian tribe in the Amazonas are that great, unfortunately. What I can do is work to preserve their way of life, and promote it. And maybe some day, in South America or South Asia, I'll find a place that can be my home. Fuck knows it can never be on the northern hemisphere.

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